caligo

4.1.08

Can't Erase It

"Can't Erase It" - JARS OF CLAY

Follow the crowd and love everybody now
'Cause love is the best thing for you now
But you changed your mind, you let everybody down
But down is the best place for you
It's easier that way, you know it's

So wrong, can't embrace it
Wish sometimes for any other you
But you can't erase it, and you won't escape it

Don't waste your time
Your words only confine you
To all of the things you've buried now
Don't ask them why
Their wisdom will leave you blind
But blind is the best thing for you
It's easier I know, you know it's

So wrong, can't embrace it
Wish sometimes for any other you
But you can't erase it, and you won't escape it

How long will you face it
Till the wait comes crashing down on you
'Cause you can't erase it, and you won't escape it

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

This really reminds me of someone I know - please keep him in your prayers!!

posted by Emmerzz @ Friday, January 04, 2008 0 comments

2.1.08

Caligo

Caligo is a latin word that has two meanings...

To becloud, darkening

To make dizzy

Jordan just pointed out the music video of Flyleaf's "All around me" - which a visual to how people were worshippin at IHOP. I don't know if she is singing about God - but to me, she is.

So, check it out! :]

http://youtube.com/watch?v=_-sNIWi2fLs

posted by Emmerzz @ Wednesday, January 02, 2008 0 comments

Soul

My soul longs for you
My soul longs for you
Nothing else will do
Nothing else will do.

Spin around spin around open your mouth breath in breath in inhale the life inhale the life shining shining spin around spin around fall down fall down open your mouth sing sing spin around spin around praise praise wake up wake up wake up spin around fall down spin fall spin fall

WAKE UP

I went to Kansas City, Kansas for a 4 day woship/praise/prayer experience conference sponsered by the International House of Prayer. It has really revived me. At IHOP, they have a prayer room that has worship and prayer non-stop 24/7, and the singers and musicians rotate seamlessly in 2-hour shifts. Man... it is something to be in a place packed with people, everyone praising God to the highest and lifting their souls up in prayer.

My first day there, I was really intimidated by the atmosphere.. it seemed like everyone had more love in their heart than I did, and I almost felt out of place. People were skipping, jumping around, dancing to their hearts' content, speaking in tongues, praying in loud soulfull voices, crying out to God, raising their hands up, shaking, fasting, and kneeling down..

It warmed me up.

The second day, I felt more comfortable around them, but something was still off in my heart. Dear Lord, please help me, please help me! I want to serve you! I want you to put your hand upon me, I want to worship you without holding back!! Light up your fire in me Lord! Light me up, I want to serve you! I want my soul to be yours! I would pray silently in the midst of the cries of the 20,000 people surrounding me..

The third day, I wanted to worship, but I was holding back. I could only raise up my voice, but my body would not move. It was refusing to break down and be more exposed to the Lord, and all I could do was pray and repeat the words on the jumbotron.

The fourth day, New Years Eve, The Call was in the mainstage and held a 12-hour praying/fasting/worshipping experience from 12pm to 12am. I decided to fast and stay in the room for the 12 hours like sooooo many others.

I decided to seperate myself from our small group when we entered the mainstage room.

I went close to one of the walls where some people were scattered about dancing and praising, and praying to God Almighty the point of tears. A place where my group couldn't see me. My worship.. was personal to me.

I closed my eyes and I joined in. I danced and jumped and yelled and even prayed out loud.. with a strong voice - I had never felt so sure about God in my life. Being with those people, praying with them on issues such as abortion, the spread of prayer houses, AIDs and other sicknesses, the upcoming elections, and so forth. We prayed for eachother, and laid our hands upon ourselves. God was in that place.

I could feel him.

I could feel how much love he had for me and all of his creations.

And I broke down...

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

I bought me a journal with a bible verse on the bottom of each of the pages. I've started a prayer journal... I can't even think of why I had neglected praying in the first place.

I love you so much. Please heal my soul and give me strength to lift you up in everything I do. Amen.

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

On the 12-hour fast when I was worshipping, the Lord told me to tell select people that he loves them... So I texted or called the people, and probably weirded them out.. but when a feeling like that hits you.. all you can do is bow down.

Seriously.

If I've contacted you in the last couple of days, know that the Lord loves you sooo much and will always be there to listen to you when you are down and when you are happy, praise his name - because he loves his creations. He love you. And he will never let you down. He wants you to come to him when everything is falling apart around you and he wants you to dance out of pure joy and happiness. He wants you so much. He will not abandon you.

posted by Emmerzz @ Wednesday, January 02, 2008 0 comments

25.12.07

Enchanted!

Tonight Sissy and I are going to go see Enchanted in the Paducah Cinemark. :] I'm excited because I have a lot of energy and I can finally go do something today!! (I'll edit post later and tell you all about it!)

But anyways, Enchanted is guarenteed to be magical, mushy, cheesy, romantic, and fluffy, along with prolly have some hot guys in the cast. Soooo I'm all ready for it. WooHoo! That's what makes a good movie! (Well, a good sissy and sissy movie! <3)

Later tater because Emily is going out~!

[ __E D I T E D__ ]

Oh man... Enchanted really was amazing and the exact movie that I needed to see tonight because it warmed my heart wayyy up this Christmas. It was so magical - I could care less if it wasn't practical or logic.. it was perfect.

I'm a sucker for happily-ever-after..

posted by Emmerzz @ Tuesday, December 25, 2007 1 comments

Some day this turned out to be.

Well, the day is great... I'm just driving myself crazy - nothing new or exotic. So don't expect some amazing birds to fly out of your harddrive from visiting this page.. yeah.

So, Christmas was awesome. On Saturday we open up our family's presents, Sunday we went to my Dad's parents, and yesterday and now we are in Paducah celebrating with my mom's side. When we visit down here we usualy stay a few nights. Nothing new.

I got a bunch of those amazingly soft socks, art stuff, jewelry, and some other misc. stuffs. I didn't really want anything.. so I'm happy with all that I recieved. Man.. I almost forgot to mention my new penguin pj's! I love them, they're so soffftttt. :]

Well, as I sit here pondering the meaning of my life..

Ehh.. not really, I'm just procrastination on some stuff because it's hard to concentrate on what you need to concentrate on when you keep thinking about things and whatnot.. then you start driving yourself down a hole. Sheesh, it's dark down there and I keep forgetting to bring new batteries for my flashlight. So, I guess I'm stuck for now. Fluffy bunny rabbits. Whatever.

One thing that has been on my mind - is my blogspot layout believe-it-or-not, the saying "Contrast makes reality" really hits me hard. It puts even more emphasis on the balance spectrum - with every action, there is an opposite and equal reaction.

Lately I've been hanging out with people that literally make my close friends gag. Why am I not on the same page as my buddies? Truth is, Contrast makes Reality. I didn't know what those kind of people were like until I had first hand quality time with them and so now I can positively say: I cannot stand them. Want me to be a little more specific?? I think people that smoke, do pot, get high and whatnot, drink as a hobby, and are into all sorts of trash are very DISGUSTING. I don't care what personality you SAY you have. Truth behold - your actions are a RESULT of what goes on in your head. Cut the crap. Actions do define you.

YOU ARE MESSED UP

But I don't want anything to do with you..

Maybe, you do need to be judgemental for once and really look at your life..

Heck, look at my life for all I care.

And what you will find.. is that Contrast makes Reality

Two worlds... that are fighting for their own little respect in the life spectrum.

And we're all a part of it. We're both right, we're both wrong. But as I have the right to like you, I also have the right to have no respect for you.

you people make me SICK

posted by Emmerzz @ Tuesday, December 25, 2007 0 comments

18.12.07

Home

Whoa, lead singer of THREE DAYS GRACE is amazing. Seriously! He's perfection in a male body. Wowww... I really like staring at him. Sounds strange, but I'm being serious.. and here I thought that my Supernatural boys where it.. wow

Anyways, my favorite music video of him is "Home" (only want him to loose the facial hair hehe) and in "Pain" he looks completely dark and pulls it off very nicely. If I was a cartoon... I'd be drooling. (A lot a lot)

Did I mention that his voice is...

Well, I love his voice.

Too bad he's married.. shame. :(

HEY! I found a music video to Supernatural to the song "Time of Dying" by Three Days Grace...!! AWESOME I'm so happy now. <3

Click for youtube video!!

Chao
-Emmerzz

posted by Emmerzz @ Tuesday, December 18, 2007 0 comments

I <3 Softball

HOLD, WATCH, BRACE, BEGIN, ROCK, 12:00, JUMP, CRACK, SHUFFLE, LOOK, WATCH, RUN, DOWN, SLIDE, and then jump up because you are SAFE!

Yay :)

I just got home from an amazing softball contitioning. First off, we warmed up with some laps and pyrometric warm-ups. We did some sort of rotation with different stations, there was 6 stations and two rotations within the stations... oi! :) My first station (partner is the sexy Hannah lol) was the push-ups with one hand on a medicine ball and the other on the ground. Do that for a minute, and then switch the medicine ball to the other hand. Next station was sit-ups with your feet off the ground, next was touching a kettle bell (35 pounds) to the ground while standing on one foot. (might I add that I about fell over hehe), and then switch legs after one minute... just proved to me that I need some balance! :) Next station was pressing the kettle bell up and over your head. Next to last was standing on two platforms and doing deep squats with the kettle bell, and the last station was swinging the kettle bell and "tossing" it to the other hand while doing squats.. or something like that :). Then we did some agility things with a rope ladder.. yay, I sucked at that! But I tried :)

** Mass props to Savannah, and especially Gretchen, Ansley, and Elizabeth for being so awesomely amazing and athletic. :) You guys are soooo inspiring. hehe Love youuuuu!!! (Thanks for not making fun of mee!! jk~! <3)

Hannah would have to wait for her friend to pick her up from the Warehouse (or Sports complex for all you newbies.. whatever hehe), so I took her to Dairy Queen for some treats. She got a fudgebar (that was freezer burnt oi!! I got a good old-fashioned Dilly bar.. Mmmm :) But when I finally got home I ended up eating a leftover brownie from yesterday's meal. hehe It was sooooo gooooooooddd. I love chocolate.. I wish it was good for meeeeee. :(

And that was generally my after school day! :)

To a certain someone who sat next to me in the library for about 3 minutes... check your H:\ drive tomorrow for a nifty little suprise. :)

Now I'm home and preparing my brain to study for the remainder of my night... yay?? If you wanna call me, call me LATE - seriously.

-Emmerrzz

posted by Emmerzz @ Tuesday, December 18, 2007 0 comments

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Hey, I'm Emily!! I'm a senior at Mercer County Senior High. (I <3 lead singers hehe) I love to paint, play music, swim, and play SOFTBALL. Varsity baby~! My life is pretty interesting.. I really do love it. I'm opening up a visual art studio soon - Studio Firefly in the Fort Harrod Motel. Yay! I'll keep you alerted!!

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